A New Year Of New Adventures

2011 was filled with ups and downs, but we truly fill like we were able to experience more joy than we have in a long time.  God has been more than good to us this year.  After praying to get pregnant for 2 years, we have still come up short and sure that could be a downer, but I know God is Sovereign.  He knows what is best for our lives and every day He is revealing Himself to Nick and me in the most unexpected ways.  This year we were presented the opportunity to adopt and we praise God for that.  All Glory to Him!  I was also able to go to Haiti twice this year, which was incredible, but what really sealed the deal was Nick going with me in December.  Nick and I have decided to devote any spare time we have to working on helping Sonson (haitian brother) get his visa, so he can come to the states to get his a better education.  We were sad to see it go, but we are beyond excited for 2012 and all it will bring.

2012 is going to be a great year filled with new adventures and experiences.  We have many close friends joining their lives together this year, our little man will be here for end of March/first of April, I will be turning 30 (Eeekkk!), we will be experiencing a lot of first this year, and we will be waiting for the end of the world in 2012.  haha.  As we patiently wait for Ezekiel’s arrival, Nick and I have taken on picking colors and decor for his room.

We decided to buy an old antique dresser and luckily we were able to get one for free.  We have been working on it this week by sanding and putting primer on it, so we can paint it.  We aren’t quite done, but I thought I would share what we had so far.

This is the dresser after we sanded it and put the primer on.

These are the drawers before primer.  Nick had only sanded them.  It is coming together!!! 😀

I can’t wait until it all comes together.

I promise to update as we continue to work and it all comes together.  Hope you all have as much to look forward to in this New Year as Nick and I do.

Children… square peg in a round hole?

Nick and I have been talking about children… scary, huh?  We both know we want children and we don’t want to wait much longer (Lord knows I am not getting any younger).  Children change your life so much… instead of everything being about you, everything is about the child.  Nick and I are not use to that… we do what we want, when we want, however we want.  That won’t be happening once children are thrown into the mix.  We had a long talk on Monday night about the fact that there are still several things that I want to do before we have children and how much harder those things will be to do when we have children to think about.  I feel very overwhelmed with anxiety when I think about all of these things and I don’t want the thought of children to be a source of anxiety for either one of us.

I really think that Nick will be an amazing father and that together we will make a good team when it comes to parenting… it is all just very overwhelming and scary.  I guess the idea of children right now compared to all the things that I still want to do just seems like trying to make a square peg fit into a round hole.  I will keep praying because I know that the Lord will show us when is the right time (I still have a lot of weight to lose before hand as well).

thoughts… just a bunch of thoughts.