a word can change everything…”mommy!”

Last night I received a phone call from Sarah’s mom.  I had just finished a softball game with Bethany Christian and was pretty pumped about our win.  We were going to eat with the team, so I figured I would return the call after dinner.  During dinner I sent my mom a text message about going on vacation and she replied with, “Did Susan call you?”  I sent her message back telling her that she had called, but that I hadn’t have a chance to call her, but I was planning to once I was done with dinner.  She sent a text message back that said “as soon as possible.”

After that text I told Nick we needed to go, because I needed to return the call.  As soon as we got into the truck, I went ahead and made the phone call.  [At the moment, several things were running through my head… she scored a goal in soccer, she won an award, she was calling to wish me a happy belated birthday, she was really sick, or maybe the impossible, but I quickly put the impossible out of my head].  Sarah’s mom answered the phone with her usual sweet greeting [with Sarah in the background saying, “you said I could tell her”], and told me that Sarah had something she wanted to tell me.  Sarah was quick to take the phone and the next thing to be said to me was from Sarah’s sweet voice, “Hey Mommy!”  [I couldn’t breathe.  I felt like someone has just sucked all the air out of me.  A million things were running through my head, so the only thing I could do was say, “Hey Sarah.”  Then she giggled and said it again, “Hey Mommy!  Mom and dad told me tonight that you are my mom.”  She was so happy!!!  I had no clue how to act or what to say.  I could hardly breathe for goodness’ sake.

I told Sarah I was so excited that I was about to start crying to which she replied, “I know, right?!?!”  [too much like me].  I asked Sarah how they told her and she said, “Mom promised me that the next time Dad was with us they would tell me who my mom was.  I had been asking for a while.  So Mom told me, ‘you know her.’  I replied, ‘I do?”  Then momma said, ‘your mom is Mrs. Ronda.’  I couldn’t believe it.”

I then asked her what she thought about all of this information she had just been given and she said, “When they told me I was so excited and shocked that I leaned back in my chair and just thinking about you being my mom felt like I was falling into clouds.”  [I had the biggest lump in my throat as I was trying to do everything, but cry].  I started laughing and told her how glad I was that she was soooo excited.  Then she asked me, “Is Nick excited about too?”  I reassured her that he was very excited [which was easy to see with his giant smile].  We both talked about the next time we would see one another and how we would do much better about talking on a regular basis now that it wouldn’t be so hard.  Then Sarah told me her mom wanted to talk to me again.  They explained how excited she was and how she told them that “they would always be her mommy and daddy and that she loved them, but she was very excited about finally having two moms.”  She also told me that she couldn’t have seen it going any better than it had and I explained that I totally agreed.

I told them how thankful I was for them and their love for her.  I told them that I couldn’t have picked better parents for her and that I knew that God had His hand in all of it.  I also reassured her that Nick and I only wanted to partner with them in loving her and teaching her about the Lord.  I reminded her that we saw them as her parents, not us, and we would respect their wishes always.  I made sure she knew we only had her best interest at heart and that we were overjoyed by the news we had received.  Wish a promise of a visit as quickly as possible and me thanking them repeatedly, we were close to ending our conversation, so she asked Sarah if she had anything she wanted to tell me before we got off the phone.

Sarah, as quickly as before, took the phone from her mom and said to me, “I love you Momma.  Good night Momma!  I love you, Momma!  Bye Mom.”  [still in shock] I told her, “You have given me the best news possible.  I love you too Sarah.  Good night.”

I could hardly breathe when I hung up the phone with her.  I am pretty sure my feet weren’t touching the ground… my brain wasn’t really working [actually it was in overdrive].  I sent a text message to my mom that said “HOLY COW,” as I explained my conversation with Sarah to Nick, Megan, and Adam.  [Nick had already called his mom and Megan had already text hers].  It was crazy.  Then I finally called my mom.  She already knew because Sarah had called her after they called me and couldn’t reach me.

Sarah told my mom, “Ronda is my mom.  Nick is my dad.  You are my grandma.  Mr. Ronnie is my grandpa.  Russell is my Uncle. Kristopher, Zachary, Zaylee are my cousins.”  Mom said she seemed super excited when she talked to them.  Mom and dad were completely overjoyed as well.

The whole situation with Sarah’s adoption and her knowledge of the situation has turned out to be a total God thing.  To Him be all the glory!  There is no way that it would have turned out this perfectly without His hands all over this.  Thank you to everyone who has been praying for her and me over the years.  They were truly heard.  Thank you!!!  Please continue to pray as we all transition… especially for Nick and I as we transition into a more permanent role in her life.  I love ya’ll!!!!

Ps. Sorry this is soooo rushed and probably jumbled, but I wanted to hurry up and get it out. :]