Nick and I have been talking about children… scary, huh? We both know we want children and we don’t want to wait much longer (Lord knows I am not getting any younger). Children change your life so much… instead of everything being about you, everything is about the child. Nick and I are not use to that… we do what we want, when we want, however we want. That won’t be happening once children are thrown into the mix. We had a long talk on Monday night about the fact that there are still several things that I want to do before we have children and how much harder those things will be to do when we have children to think about. I feel very overwhelmed with anxiety when I think about all of these things and I don’t want the thought of children to be a source of anxiety for either one of us.
I really think that Nick will be an amazing father and that together we will make a good team when it comes to parenting… it is all just very overwhelming and scary. I guess the idea of children right now compared to all the things that I still want to do just seems like trying to make a square peg fit into a round hole. I will keep praying because I know that the Lord will show us when is the right time (I still have a lot of weight to lose before hand as well).
thoughts… just a bunch of thoughts.